Through thick and thicker..

It’s been 14 months and we’ve got more years to go. Tayo lang ata ang couple na hindi naniniwala sa forever, kasi alam nating hindi tayo immortal at always and lifetime lang mapapangako natin sa isa’t isa ^_^

Akala mo lang hindi ako excited sa monthsary natin kasi tinotopak nanaman recently ang magaling mong girlfriend. Pero subukan mo buksan ang twitter mo, nagbibilang ako ng mga araw doon. Hahahaha! I love you memey. Hindi nila magauge kung gaano kita kamahal, pero ang importante, ikaw alam mo. Alam mo ang capacity ng love ko hahahaha

These past few months have been hard. We’ve been struggling, we’re hitting rough patches, and we’ve got a lot of personal issues. I’m proud that we’re becoming more mature with our relationship. Pero syempre, minsan hindi parin natin maiwasan ang sumabog. But I’m always glad that at the end of the day, we keep coming back to each other. And that I think, is what is more imporant. Ramdam na ramdam kong ayaw mo ako mawala. Ako pa ba e sobrang swerte mo na sakin? Charaughts hahahaha

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Basta, please hold on to my promise. Sa lahat ng promise ko, yung hindi kita ibbully lang lang naman yung hindi ko natupad. Kasi ikaw talaga ang perfect person to bully. I love you so much memey. Wag mo na masyado intindihin yung gf mo ngayon, kasi magkakadalaw na. -_- Sorry.

And I swear, that all your hardwork is being appreciated. Minsan nahihirapan lang ako ilet go yung mga nangyari, but I’m trying my best. Conscious effort as always.

Sana.. in the future, maging ganito ako sayo…

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Happy 14th monthsary saating dalawa. Happy birthday din Benjie Belza! Sana masaya ka kung nasan ka man. At mag enjoy ka sa birthday mo. 🙂

Basta tandaan mo lang, na mahal na mahal kita. At hindi yung mga ganoon pangyayari ang makakatinag saatin. 🙂 Yung di mo lang pagligo araw-araw. Please lang.

Something for the broken hearted…

Some people think that chasing after closure from the other person will help them let go and move on. I think otherwise. Chasing closure can be an excuse for bargain. You try to change their mind, you find loopholes in their explanations and say you will work on the reason why they’re leaving. If you feel like you already fought hard, let them walk away and accept that some battles are not meant to be won. You did your part, do not be too hard on yourself. Grieve, cry, and give yourself some time. Then suck it up, have some balls.

Eventually, you will realize that the only person who can give you closure and peace of mind is yourself. And it is freeing when you finally receive it.

It took me several months before I realized this. Several painful months. I chased after someone asking for an explanation, asking why he’s leaving, asking why he’s fallen out of love, asking for a chance. Until now, he’s never given me an answer. Then I learned to live with that. I realized that I wasn’t really chasing for closure. I was chasing HIM. And asking for an explanation was an excuse for bargain. It took me several months to figure out that I will never have my answer. Some questions are not meant to be asked and some are not meant to be answered. I thought that ignorance was a good idea. And it was.

I just accepted the fact that he has already fallen out of love. If you think about it, an explanation doesn’t really matter. He left you, that’s it. You’ve done your part. You’ve given enough. The reason for all these will not matter anymore. It’s already irrelevant. He has left you. And when you overthink about the reasons and explanations, you’ll torture yourself and perpetuate the agony. You’ll keep on thinking what you did wrong. Remember that it’s not about you, it’s about them. You should only focus on two things: that the person left you, whatever his/her reason was and now it’s time for you to move on. The reason behind the move isn’t relevant. It’s not going to help.